Sunday, 16 December 2007

  • Having never before lost a pen in my cognizant life, I lost two today within an hour.

    What does this mean?
    Does this herald a new phase of life or is it completely inconsequential?
    Is this a good omen, a bad omen, or a tasty omelet?
    How do squirrels get their pecan fix during the winter?
    What's the meaning of life?
    I wonder what's for dinner.

    So many questions...

Saturday, 01 December 2007

  • Pastor Iggi's sermon a few Sundays ago hit home for me.
    Joy.  Love.  Contentment.
    These really are three worthy principles to live by.  And maybe each stems from the others.  He also made reference to this song:

    "I Got Plenty O' Nothing" from "Porgy & Bess"

    I got plenty o'nothing
    I got plenty o'nothin' and nothin's plenty for me
    I got no car, got no mule, I got no misery
     
    Folks with plenty of plenty, they got a lock on the door
    Afraid somebody's gonna rob 'em while they're out a'makin' more
    What for?
     
    I got no lock on the door, that's no way to be
    They can steal the rug from the floor, that's ok with me
    'Cause the things that I prize, like the stars in the skies, are all free

    Say, I got plenty o'nothin' and nothin's plenty for me
    I got my gal, got my song, got heaven the whole day long
    Got my gal
    Got my love
    Got my song

    Obviously, I can't completely identify with this song since I can't sing, I do have a lock on my door, I don't got a gal, etc.  The song does seem a tad extreme, but it reminded me of various pieces I've heard and read on how Christians should approach wealth and poverty.  Here's a summary:

    There are two main dangers that wealth exposes people to:

    1. Pride.
    Boasting, becoming a snob, looking down on the poor.

    2. Materialism.
    Not the mere possession of material things, but an unhealthy obsession with them.  An attachment to money that trumps generosity.  Putting our trust and security in wealth.  Ultimately, enjoying the gift and forgetting the Giver.

    Therefore, the chief effect of wealth is to spoil our two noblest relationships.  It can make us forget God and despise our fellow human beings.  Acknowledging the dangers in wealth, there are three possible courses of action:

    1. Stay rich (i.e. no modification of economic lifestyle).
    Wealth is a sign of God's blessing and it is right to claim and enjoy it, right?  Wrong.  Wealth isn't necessarily a sign of God's blessing (many obvious examples of this).  And while there is a difference between "creative hobbies and empty status symbols" and between "occasional celebrations and normal routine," our right to the enjoyment of God-given wealth must be balanced and, in some cases, even precluded by the Biblical mandate (found in both the OT and the NT) for the rich to take care of the poor.  "The Bible says much about defending other people's rights, but little about defending our own.  On the contrary, when it addresses us, it emphasizes our responsibilities, not our rights... It emphasizes that our responsibility is to secure the other person's rights.  We must even forgo our own rights in order to do so."  Thus for Christians, giving is voluntary, but it is not optional.  And so in the light of this and of the millions worldwide living in poverty, it is impossible for us to simply stay rich with a clear conscience.  "You cannot serve both God and Mammon."  And finally, Christ says that "it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich person to enter the kingdom of God." All things are possible with God, but this means exactly what it says.

    2. Become poor.
    Should we then all become complete ascetics?  No.  While Christ does call some people to total voluntary poverty (like the young ruler), it's not a universal calling.  Joseph of Arimathea is described as simultaneously being both a rich man and a disciple of Jesus.  While the Acts church shared everything they had and "gave to anyone as he had need," this is mostly descriptive, not prescriptive.  Christian selling and sharing of property is neither universal nor compulsory (plenty of examples, e.g. Mary and Martha owned a house).  God has created in humanity a rainbow of personalities and cultures.  Similarly, He probably does not intend for all of us to have the exact same house, car, or bank account.  In that sense, equality is not egalitarianism, just as unity does not require uniformity.  What fiscal equality in an equal society does mean, however, is that, at the very least, there should be no extreme economic disparities between the "rich" and the "poor."

    3. To live simply, to give generously, and to be content.
    This isn't the only "third" alternative, but it's a good one.

    3a. To live simply.
    "Our battle-cry is not 'nothing!' but 'enough!'" - John Taylor.  Living simply doesn't exclude having possessions or the careful enjoyment of blessings.  But it does prohibit extravagance and wasteful living, and anything that even begins to approach those.

    3b. To give generously.
    "If anyone has material possessions, and sees his brother in need, but has no pity on him, how can the love of God be in him?" - Jesus.  Giving generously to all those in need will inevitably result in the lowering of one's standard of living.  This voluntary downward mobility is not the goal of charity, but it is a necessary result.  Giving must be done carefully and creatively, in ways that won't create dependence or trample on the dignity of the poor.

    3c. To be content.
    It's possible to live simply, give generously, and yet be reluctant about this.  Contentment is a reflection of the state of the heart, and thus is the differential for those who go through the motions without a real heart change.

    I think that the principles behind all of this are best summarized in these two quotes:

    "[This declaration] is a commitment to the belief that there are more important things in life than the amassing of riches, and that if the pursuit of wealth clashes with things like human dignity and social equality, then the latter will be given priority.” - The Arusha Declaration

    "If we are embarrassed either to visit other people in their home, or to invite them into ours, because of the disparity of our economic lifestyles, something is wrong. The inequality is too great. It has broken the fellowship." - John Stott

    Well… that was much longer than I had originally intended.  Anyway, I have to go to sleep.

Thursday, 01 November 2007

  • I can't remember the last time I went to a bookstore to just sit and read for leisure.  But that’s what I did today.  I spent two hours reading at Barnes and Nobles while waiting for an oil change.  It afforded me the chance to finally finish “Compassion, Justice, and the Christian Life” by Robert Lupton.  It’s the latest book from a community developer whose work in urban Atlanta I respect very much.  His writings aren’t full of profound theological truths, literary pyrotechnics, or groundbreaking insight into the human condition, yet there’s something deeply penetrating about the collection of anecdotes and moral mini-lessons in his writings.

    “Renewing the City” aside, Lupton’s books tend to contain a lot of the same stories that were originally showcased in “Theirs Is the Kingdom,” his first publication.  “Compassion” isn’t any different.  But the points of the stories are always well-taken and compelling.  There’s an emphasis on the necessity of neighboring with those whom you seek to serve, the value of personal human touch, the distinction between betterment and development, and the moral dangers of leading and of serving.


    There’s also an appendix included at the end of the book, which I thought was helpful.  It’s the party line/essay (also found at www.ccda.org/?p=9 ) of the Christian Community Development Association (have any of you guys associated with this group before?).  There’s this dream that I’ve had for some time.  The path is there, but the steps to take are never clear.  This has helped a little.  But I feel like I’m still at a point in my life (stupid second year of med school) where I’m supposed to be focusing all efforts on learning.  Sometimes I get really impatient though and ignore my studies in order to research and scheme… I keep having to remind myself that patience, timing, and prayer are the keys to any successful venture.


    Well, here’s an excerpt from “Compassion, Justice, and the Christian Life”:  (please don’t sue me, Bob)


            “The people of the Kingdom have a unique mandate to care for the needs of the vulnerable and the voiceless.  Our Scriptures are quite clear about this.  It has been from antiquity both our birthright and our responsibility.  We cannot rightly take joy in the rebirth of the city if no provision is being made to include the poor as co-participants.  It will not be enough to offer food baskets at Christmas to migrating masses of needy people who are being driven by market forces away from the vital services of the city.  Nor will our well-intentioned programs and ministries suffice for those being scattered to unwelcoming edge cities.  We must be more intelligent than this.  More strategic.
            While we remain committed to fulfilling the Great Commission, there is a prior command to which the followers of Christ are called.  The Great Command, loving God, and its inseparable companion, loving neighbor, form the bedrock of our faith.  All the Law and the Prophets are built upon this foundation, our Lord said.  The prophet Micah captured its essence:  He has told you, oh man, what is good and what the Lord desires of you, that you do justice and love mercy and walk humbly with your God (Mic. 6:8).
            The Body of Christ is amply resourced with the very talents needed to bring about both mercy and justice in our changing cities.  In addition to those more spiritual sounding gifts – those we have heard sermons about – there is a vast untapped reservoir of giftedness ready to channel into the work of the Kingdom – secular sounding gifts like deal-making, lending, insuring, lawyering, marketing, architecture, and real estate developing, to name but a few.  Under the Lordship of Christ, these become spiritual gifts ideally designed for the work of biblical justice.
            The “Christ-ones” who believe that their highest calling is to love God and love their neighbor are the very ones equipped to infuse into our culture both values and actions that will have redemptive outcomes.  We can buy crack houses and renovate them into residences for mission-minded couples.  We can structure deals to develop mixed-income housing.  We can create innovative housing policies that will induce developers to include lower-income residents in their plans.  We can pass ordinances that will give tax relief to seniors on fixed incomes so that they can remain in their homes.  We can establish loan funds to give down-payment assistance to lower-income homebuyers.  If we are both caring and thinking people, we can use our influence and resources to develop the means by which the least of these can share in the benefits of a reviving city – and foster healthy growth at the same time.  We can harness the growing tide of gentrification so that it becomes a redemptive force in our cities.  In a word, we can bring about gentrification with justice.”

    I should get to bed now.  As smothering as school already is in my life, it seems I need to step it up another notch (actually, quite a few notches) this year.  But I intend to keep reading some pertinent books:  I’m nearing the end of “Everlasting Man” (omg GK Chesterton is so long-winded, it makes me not want to read anything else of his ever again), I’m a few chapters into “Knowing God” (a gift and a long overdue read), and I’ve just started The Kite Runner (which I’ve been told is a great read).  Hopefully these will help keep me sane during the year from hell.

Monday, 01 October 2007

  • I think I said something about a hiatus.  (I lied =( )
    I haven’t really used xanga in over a year.  Call me a curmudgeon, but I don’t like the new module/theme/skin system (mostly because I can’t figure it out).  So I got rid of everything I could.  Now I’m left with this depressing black/white theme =(.  Oh well, I will work on it later (maybe).

    There was a time in my life when I used xanga regularly, but these days, school leaves me with barely enough time to attend church/small groups/large groups/accountability.  In college, I wondered where all the young adults in med school went.  Now I know – buried behind piles of books somewhere, studying furiously in solitude with an occasional string of expletives puncturing the otherwise pervasive silence.

    So I’m not a very reflective person in general, but the past few weeks have lent themselves to soul-searching.  I realize that what I miss most about the pre-grad school years is familiarity.  Really knowing people and having people really know me.  It’s pretty easy to take that for granted.  Knowing names, number of siblings, and college major is one thing.  But there’s an intangible something in shared memories, spending the night laughing and talking about everything and nothing, from faith and careers to girls and politics.  What is it that was so significant about midnight Kong runs.  Or the late night talks in Winthrop dining hall.  Or someone’s awful idea to make a Bloody Mary from Ragu pesto tomato paste and Tabasco sauce.

    It’s time, sheer and simple time spent together.  It’s irreplaceable.  And it’s the only way you come to really know someone.  To know how someone will respond even before they react.  To know what someone is thinking by the way they blink rapidly.  To be able to make an offensive comment for its simple hilarity and not be thought racist.  To be able to give an unqualified recommendation, be it for a movie, entrée, or potential girlfriend, because you know exactly what their preferences are.  It all requires time.

    And therein lays the rub of it all.  If there’s anything I lack right now, it’s time.  I guess that’s why I place so much value on those people whom I already know and who know me.

    Oh well, what to do.  It is what it is.  Anyway, I have no idea why I’m not sleeping and I have no idea what I just wrote.  I haven’t been up this late in ages.  Good night!


Friday, 21 September 2007

Friday, 07 September 2007

  • My brother is back in America! He should be home early next week .  Praise God.

    Update:  My brother should be home sometime tomorrow (Saturday, 9/8/2007).

    P.S. I have no idea what this "xanga modules" is about.  Everything looks weird now.  Anyway, maybe I'll figure it out when I have time.  But maybe not.

Monday, 26 June 2006

Friday, 28 April 2006

  • Fertilizer and Flowers

    Up and down, up and down.  The little children go up and down, laughing, screaming, faces glowing in the neon breeze of the ferris wheel.  They're having fun, but the wheel...  well, it doesn't really care.

    There's a draft coming through the window.  Spring.  It always smells of change.

    *edit*

    I want a Nabaztag.  Don't you?  They're ridiculously cute... and practical too! 

Tuesday, 14 February 2006

  • It’s Valentine's Day.  ha-ha!  Sucks for those who don't have a Valentine!    (Juuuust kidding)

     

    I don't have a Valentine either .  But that's not unusual.  This is the 20th or 21st time that I've been Valentine-less on February 14th, depending on who's counting and whether or not you include all the chicas I used to holla at when I was in elementary school.  Anyway, what I mean to say is.. I really like Valentine’s Day, even if I’m single and even if the day breeds materialism.  Actually, I like being single on Valentine’s Day.  Really, I do.  It’s not sour grapes, it’s not dissonance delusion, and it’s not for economic reasons.

     

    2/14 - the heartbeat of romance that flutters once a year.  Month-old plans that teased out smiles in secret finally converge to lie bare.  Brave words manage to choke past hearts in throats.  Special treatments find special someones.  Relationships are sworn or torn.  The sword of Damocles breaks its tether.  Would-be chefs curse at recipes and failed creations.  Private investigators’ finances flow black.  It’s this penetrating stench of romance, the product of its bustle, renascent dreams, and sliding plastic, that makes today, for singles, different from other days of being exactly that.  For us, today is a spotlight on singleness and this is why V-day is a good day.

     

    Even if you ignore its genesis, Valentine’s Day should spawn reflection on relationships.  On their sanctity and holiness.  And, especially for singles, on maturity and readiness.  It’s this consequence of contemplation that makes Valentine’s Day compelling, no matter how lonely, angsty, or decried by anti-consumerists.  Tares will always grow amongst wheat, and no other day makes you confront romance like Valentine’s Day does.


    I’m grateful for another year to grow up, to give the next 2/14 more meaning, to become a better brother to serve that sister.

Thursday, 09 February 2006

  • From Theirs Is The Kingdom

    A passion for excellence.  Diligence.  Drive.  Efficiency.  The competitive edge.  These are the values of achievers, the essence of upward mobility and the stuff of which success is made.

    Enter Jesus, the Christ.  Mighty God.  The Everlasting Father.  Emptied.  Weak.  Dependent.  Here to show us the way to greatness, heavenly greatness, by becoming least.  King turned servant.  Downwardly mobile.  What sort of ethic is this?

    There are those who will find it exceedingly difficult to understand, the Teacher said.  Like the wealthy, successful, educated ones.  But there will be a few renegades and other out-of-step people who will be given eyes to perceive the kingdom.  They will listen to the homeless leader who owned one change of clothes, didn’t budget to pay his taxes, and was an affront to self-respecting, responsible believers.

    “Take no thought for tomorrow… don’t worry about what you will eat or wear… don’t lay up treasures here… give your coat… share your bread… lend without expecting a return.”  Wonderful rhetoric but highly impractical.  Suicidal if taken literally – and so the reasonable folks did not take it that way.

    Indeed, his teachings are suicidal for the successful.  The downward mobility of the kingdom strikes at the very heart of our earthly strivings.  It feels like death to let go of our diligent preparations for the next step up and the investments that insure our tomorrows.  Who in their right mind would gamble away a reasonably predictable and secure future on a high-risk intangible faith venture like the kingdom of God?  A balanced portfolio makes more sense.  A good mix of earthly investments with enough heavenly stock to carry us if the bottom falls out of the economy.  The best of both worlds, we might say.

    Jesus the Christ.  Mighty God.  Destitute.  He says we can’t have it both ways, that our security is either in God or mammon.  He tells us that the servant is not greater than his master, that greatness – his and ours – is found only in servanthood, in choosing the lesser positions while yielding the better places to others.  It is only in laying down our privilege, our control, our comfort for the sake of others, he says, that we can know life as he created it to be.

    Heavenly hosts burst forth in hallelujahs (not tears) at the sight of their naked, helpless Creator in the straw.  Heaven’s best lavished on the least of earth.  Glory to God, they exclaimed.  The first fruits of a new world order have come, and he has revealed the values of his kingdom:  vulnerability, obedience with abandon, lavish giving, faith that defies reason, volitional downward mobility.

    Foolishness.  God has chosen the weak to lead the strong and the foolish to confound the wise.  His end?  That all may know his utter dependability to care for those who will risk trusting him.

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